loser

okay lets be honest with myself and then I think I can start moving forward! It seems to me if I start to fill good and I lose weight, I then go to proceed to destroy it with quiting the exercise then I start to eat anything and everything! So why do I do this! I have no idea! But just two years ago I was really working out and my pants were starting to fit me! I really felt good about my self! Now look at me! I'm back at the weight I never wanted to be at! My legs ache so bad and by night they swell up were I barely can walk! Now I ask my self is this what I want to be! NO! But what made me go back here! Why do I do this to myself! Is it being lonely? Am I bored with my life?
My life is moving at a very fast pace! I just remember that I am 51 this year! I still thought I was 50. I also think I am losing my memory! just little things! The doc says its normal at this time in my life! Well you know what I don't think its normal and I want to also exercise my brain as well as my body!
I joined loser online on face book and I hope to get inspired to try and get going again and feel better about me! For my brain I want to at least read one book a month on true events and learn from them! so this month I will read up on New york (because I got the book and yes I am going out there in Sept.) Also I cleaned the treadmill off and downloaded a exercise program to go with it!
Also I want to try and blog some more to keep my mind active!
So I hope to keep up with this and not get lazy again!