Its been awhile since I wrote! But thought I should do one up again!
Well its been a busy week here for me! Coming home from work after working out at the gym for a hour and half to find my yard had been plow by the crazy plow man! My hubby has this tendency to plow the whole yard! And I mean the whole yard! But this time he even plowed the back yard! I should be use to this but then he comes up with the new idea's and it just blows me away!
Okay I'm over that now! But we do have another storm coming in and" gee "I hate to see what he does this time!
I finally got to see my god daughter get married! I just hope she is doing this for the right reasons! OH was she beautiful dressed up in her gown! And her guy was gorgeous in his military outfit! The judge that married them was very good! He was amazed at how many family members had cameras! Oh yeah! Guess who forgot to charge her batteries up! me!!!! So now I have to depend on pictures sent to me!! But I have them charge now! Going to go see the grand baby this weekend! And hopefully my son! I hope the storms isn't to big and doesn't stop us from going! I have been looking forward to this for awhile!
Maybe the going nuts at hubby for the plowing has him saying things to me to make up for it! He told me today ( I was going on how this exercise thing isn't even working ) that I am losing the fat face and chin ! He just saying that because I put so darn much work into exercising and I feel it isn't doing anything! I've really cut down on the eating and I hardly have any beer! I did have one this week! But I gain four more pounds again! I think it's time to go see the doc again and see what is going on! Yes I know about muscle and you gain but I have been going to the gym everyday for almost three weeks ! there should be a change going on here! But I don't see it and my clothes don't feel it either! But I am not giving up! I do feel a lot better! except for the wanting to go to sleep mode I'm in! I have been going to bed before seven and eight pm, and waking up at four or five in the morning!
I started drinking cranberry juice! And I also started looking up recipes that are low calories! I made this one with pineapple and chicken! It had jalapeno peppers in it and brown sugar and soy sauce! it was really good! I must say using the Internet to get recipe is really a good idea! I love to look for new ideas!
Well hubby got his new book I ordered him from amazon.com and he is reading now! He will read till he finishes it! But at least he isn't plowing! (lol)

Valentines Day!
It was a very tiring day as I had to work at 6am and then back to work at 10pm. So me and hubby went out to eat on the thirteenth instead and had a nice lunch at the restaurant! We then went home and watched a movie called guardian! We really liked it!
Well I went to bed and got up early and went to work as usual. Hubby clean the house and did the dishes from eating junk food during the movie! When I got home he had a bath ready and told me we were going to go out to eat at our valentine spot! (Buffalo house) But as I was in the bath hubby got phone call that his niece needy money for gas or she won't make it home so we had to go give her money at 5pm! So we didn't have time to go to our restaurant! We did go to a little cafe instead. it wasn't great food but it was okay! While hubby and I waited for the meal to come we started a new game! We played twenty questions! Okay I know it isn't new but for us it is! All the questions ask were about either him or me! To see how we know each other!
I must say that hubby did better then me! He knew my favorite food and sport and movies I like and hobby's ! I didn't know his color or books he likes!
So lesson learned again! My hubby pays more attention to me then I do to him! I guess I will have to change that and give him more attention!
We met up with his niece and he filled her tank up with gas! And then he brought me home and to bed I went! I did get up to see half of my show "lost!" Then watch the rest the next day when I got home!
So all in all I think this valentine day was the best in along time! just learning to be together and we talk about things we haven't in along time! Like we were dating again! I wish we would have had more time! I guess next time we go out to eat we will not get a newspaper and try to chat or play twenty questions again!

being a gramma

Did I ever think that I could love another child that wasn't mine?

Oh my! To even think that I could ever question that! The love I have for my daughters child, My first grandchild, is just as I have for my own children! I would give my life if I needed to!

Its so funny how are hearts just open up and let another love enter into it!

I still can feel the feeling I got when my daughter offered me to come and be in the room with her and her husband To watch the baby be born! I never got to view a birth before! (of course I got to give birth) But when I saw how great her husband supported her during the hard back labor my daughter went through I really saw the love that her hubby had for her! And I just got to say Thank you for loving my daughter! And my heart opens up and more love is entered in, as I see a whole new image of my son in law!

As I see the head come into view at the time she was born I had tears in my eyes of joy and happiness that comes when a angel is born! She entered into my heart the moment I saw her! I look over at my daughter and wanted to scream its a girl! But I toned it down and just said oh its a girl and she is so beautiful! I look over at her hubby and he too look ready to cry! ( or he really might have been teary eyed) The process of the birth was done and now we had our first grandchild!

I still remember grandpa finally got to come into the room to see his grandchild! Her name is Evelyn. Evelyn grab on to his finger! He was so proud that moment to have this little hand grab him! I got a picture of it and you can see he fell in love with her!

So now looking back and I really don't know if I ever got to thank my daughter for letting me have this experience with her! It was a wonderful joy to watch and to know she loves me that much to let me into that part of her life!

If ever I learned something that day was the joy when a family grows! Its really hard when the children you have grow up and leave and marry and have there own life's! As parent you hope they have happy and loving relationships and that life will be easy on them! And now me and my hubby as we grow older and wiser get to watch our children life's as they grow with there adult life! As parents you learn so many different kinds of love! Sharing, caring, accepting, releasing, understanding, and learning.

Scrapbooking has become very excessive for me! I am so absorbed with it! Today I got up early because I gave up on sleeping, as all I could think of was how I was going to do a page in my grand baby's scrapbook!

I started it around 6.30am and had it done by 12.30pm ! I really didn't even notice the time had flown past me! All I new was looking up at the clock because I was hungry and almost fell off my chair! Lots of hours wasted on cutting and pasting pics and designing! The thought acquired to me that if I could find a job in this I might have found what I have been looking for in life! I love to design a page and when I get one done its like" Wow" I get so proud of what I make!

Maybe I could make a commercial! Because some of the ones I'm seeing lately need to get some life into them! And what is with the pharmaceutical commercials ! By the time they rant off the side effects who would take them! why even make a commercial. lets get back to some old fashion fun stuff that made you laugh! Might make you by a product because you remember it from laughing at it!

Well I did get to my exercise and did my hour and half of body killing torture exercise! But I do feel better when I go! I still have to push myself to go and it makes me so mad that I just cant get to where I want to go! When the weather was twenty below there was no way I was leaving the house to get in a cold car to go exercise . Then get sweaty and get back in the car to go home .

So I sat for almost ten days on the couch and watch TV. Only thing I got out of the house was to go to work! Hell if i could have called in for that I would have! But I really felt the pain when i started back at exercising! Dumb I should have did the walking part on my treadmill. But that would have been smart! So I have decided not to waste another day without exercise! and I'm going to start to eat better! That's because all the left overs are gone from the Superbowl game!

This is just one pic of the party

Well it went great! To much food! I myself made enough for a hundred people and yet the couple's who came brought more! The bears didn't win! Man I just cant pick the team to win! I must say I was in bed by nine thirty and I made it to work and when I got home yesterday hubby had the house spic and span! I was very impressed! I also took a 2 hour nap then I watch prison break and off to bed I went again! I am very sleepy lately! But I really don't sleep a whole night! I wake up because of hot flashes! I do realize when I work out that seems to improve it! I have slack off somewhat with the cold weather! starting tomorrow morning I will go and exercise and then keep going everyday except when I do my doubles! Which I have two coming up this week! Yucky! But I need to get my hours in so I can slack of this summer!

Now for everyone who loves the show" Lost" first show starts tomorrow and I forgot and have to be at work at ten thirty! So that means I leave here at nine thirty! But I think I will call in and tell them I will be a half hour late and watch it! I really want to see the first show! Been watching this show since it started up! Just like the show prison break I enjoy that one also! But my very favorite show is Grey anatomy! So I watch TV on Monday and wed and also Thursday! What a life as you get older! I just wait to see these shows! I really get upset when I miss them! This fall I went and bought a new DVD rewrite so I could tape the shows when we went hunting but I goofed it up and it didn't work! I did figure out what I did wrong and so I can tape them now!

getting ready for the super bowl

Well I thought I would take a break and do a post on my blog! That sound's so funny for me to read! Me writing! Okay so what am I taking a break from! Well I made some bacon chicken wraps and spirals and my taco dip and I also got the chicken legs ready to go for tommorrow!
I clean the bathroom and got the new chalking on the floor!( looks good) Got the table up stairs and chairs! So Im ready to go for tomorrow!
I have to say that thanks to my hubby he found out we were out of heating oil and ran to buy some as were we get it from is close today! So he found containers and went to the gas store and got thirty gallons and put it in! We now will have heat for the football game! Yeah.
I really dont know how we get into these predicaments all the time! We are getting older and forgetting more! We might have to start with keep fill! Cant forget then!
Well look at this my msn is going to take me off again ! should i tell them about it or just say dont tell! Jezz big decesion!
okay I guess I will just have to head back upstairs and start more cleanning! This getting ready for the super bowl is really not so bad! Maybe because my hubby is helping me!
That last time we did something with the superbowl, hubby and I and netty went to munger taver and there was tons of food and I also won hudred and thirty dollars on the board so we had money for spending on our drinks! I won the first quarter! So i bought all the drinks! netty of course had fun and she was a talking to everyone she could get to listen to her! We both took monday off so we didnt have to go to work! But of course I had no one to remind me and I do have to get up early to work on monday so I will have to drink more water this year! Better for the body!
I hope this getting ready for the game is worth it! I always worry that no one will show or everyone will show and then you dont have enough food! But this year I got smart! Im making things that came be put in while we are watching . So I can put in as much as I need! Maybe getting older is a good thing. I think about the waste and expences that you put out instead of just going out and over doing it!Well I am going to go for the bears this year! only because they are closer to us! I really dont care which one wins but you have to choose someone to yell for during the game! Hope I will have a voice for work in the morning!

I don't know if anyone will ever see this or not! But this is a good friend that came out in the woods to do firewood! she spent Feb.20Th of 2005 up in the woods with me! We had fun! I don't know if you can really see the pic that good! She past away 18 days later on march 10Th (Wednesday)

MyNetty did so many things with me! I have so many memory's of her ! Fun was her middle name! She was caring and very generous! But somehow I need to get past that awful afternoon! So I thought if I write it down and read it that I can maybe get past it and start to see her for what she left me with, great memories ! Start to smile when I look at the pictures that she is in! I do know that she would hate that I still cry at times! But I miss her so much! It will be two year in march and I would love to make the day be a happy one and enjoy all the memories of her!

So here goes-

It starts on the weekend before! I didn't get to see her at all because I was up in the woods doing firewood! But on Monday we were working afternoons together! She came up and said she was on a Joanie low and gave me a hug! We always talk at least once a day so to go three days without talking is along time! I notice she didn't look good! I told her that her face was very red and she was puffy! She told me she didn't get more then a hour or two sleep in the three days she was off because friends had came over for the weekend! She also said she had just stop drinking at noon on Monday! It was two pm Monday when this was going on! I told her she should go home! But she said she had to take her blood pressure pill and she would be okay! Then she went into the break room and I went to work! She came back within twenty minutes and she did look better! Well I left at ten pm, and she still had her night shift to do!

Tuesday I came into work at 6am and did my first shift! Netty showed up at two and still didn't look good but she stated she got three hours sleep! We did our shift together and it was a tough shift because we really work hard! We had a few residents who were sick with the flu! By ten pm I was so wore out I looked at her said see ya have a good night! She really looked wore out! But she had to do another shift!

I didn't talk to Netty till two pm on wed. march 9Th 2005, She called me at home to see what I was doing! I said watching a movie and I will call her later! I also asked her if she had got any sleep yet! She said no! She went to her cousin funeral with her mom and sister! I told her to lay down and I would call her around four! Well she called me at 4pm and asked me when I was coming! I finally said I would pick her up at 430 and she better be ready! Well at 420 I call her back to make sure she would be ready so I wouldn't have to run in and get her! It was just a joke I did to let her know that I was leaving! Well her phone rang and a computer voice came on and told me all lines were busy! I was so confused as she didn't have a cell phone or a answering service! So I told my hubby and I called it back so he could hear it! He said weird and we headed out to get into the truck and go pick her up!We got to the house at 435 I was five minutes late!

She of course wasn't ready and i had to go in! That when my live changes forever! I went upstairs to her laying on her bedroom floor and my god she looked so awful i just cant get that image out oh my mind! I did CPR while the boy who lived there called 911. I didn't realize her son was even in the house! But he came up behind me and ask what is wrong with his mom! OH MAN I told him she would be alright as soon as the fire department got here! They didn't take to long and I was sent down stairs and was asked to wait till the cop came! The cops finally come within minutes and then tell us she is gone and it looks like she has been gone for awhile! I tell him I just talk to her at 4pm. He says must have happen right after that! More goes on but that part doesn't bother me at all! It was how I found her! I want to get that picture and delete it for all the good pictures I have of her!

I know we all have a story that holds us back in our lifetime and is hard to go on! I also know that I have learned a very good lesson in all this! Don't ever take for granted those people in my life that I hold dear to me, Because they could be taking to god at anytime! Live for the day and enjoy being with people and help others and be caring and generous as my Netty was for me!