I don't know if anyone will ever see this or not! But this is a good friend that came out in the woods to do firewood! she spent Feb.20Th of 2005 up in the woods with me! We had fun! I don't know if you can really see the pic that good! She past away 18 days later on march 10Th (Wednesday)

MyNetty did so many things with me! I have so many memory's of her ! Fun was her middle name! She was caring and very generous! But somehow I need to get past that awful afternoon! So I thought if I write it down and read it that I can maybe get past it and start to see her for what she left me with, great memories ! Start to smile when I look at the pictures that she is in! I do know that she would hate that I still cry at times! But I miss her so much! It will be two year in march and I would love to make the day be a happy one and enjoy all the memories of her!

So here goes-

It starts on the weekend before! I didn't get to see her at all because I was up in the woods doing firewood! But on Monday we were working afternoons together! She came up and said she was on a Joanie low and gave me a hug! We always talk at least once a day so to go three days without talking is along time! I notice she didn't look good! I told her that her face was very red and she was puffy! She told me she didn't get more then a hour or two sleep in the three days she was off because friends had came over for the weekend! She also said she had just stop drinking at noon on Monday! It was two pm Monday when this was going on! I told her she should go home! But she said she had to take her blood pressure pill and she would be okay! Then she went into the break room and I went to work! She came back within twenty minutes and she did look better! Well I left at ten pm, and she still had her night shift to do!

Tuesday I came into work at 6am and did my first shift! Netty showed up at two and still didn't look good but she stated she got three hours sleep! We did our shift together and it was a tough shift because we really work hard! We had a few residents who were sick with the flu! By ten pm I was so wore out I looked at her said see ya have a good night! She really looked wore out! But she had to do another shift!

I didn't talk to Netty till two pm on wed. march 9Th 2005, She called me at home to see what I was doing! I said watching a movie and I will call her later! I also asked her if she had got any sleep yet! She said no! She went to her cousin funeral with her mom and sister! I told her to lay down and I would call her around four! Well she called me at 4pm and asked me when I was coming! I finally said I would pick her up at 430 and she better be ready! Well at 420 I call her back to make sure she would be ready so I wouldn't have to run in and get her! It was just a joke I did to let her know that I was leaving! Well her phone rang and a computer voice came on and told me all lines were busy! I was so confused as she didn't have a cell phone or a answering service! So I told my hubby and I called it back so he could hear it! He said weird and we headed out to get into the truck and go pick her up!We got to the house at 435 I was five minutes late!

She of course wasn't ready and i had to go in! That when my live changes forever! I went upstairs to her laying on her bedroom floor and my god she looked so awful i just cant get that image out oh my mind! I did CPR while the boy who lived there called 911. I didn't realize her son was even in the house! But he came up behind me and ask what is wrong with his mom! OH MAN I told him she would be alright as soon as the fire department got here! They didn't take to long and I was sent down stairs and was asked to wait till the cop came! The cops finally come within minutes and then tell us she is gone and it looks like she has been gone for awhile! I tell him I just talk to her at 4pm. He says must have happen right after that! More goes on but that part doesn't bother me at all! It was how I found her! I want to get that picture and delete it for all the good pictures I have of her!

I know we all have a story that holds us back in our lifetime and is hard to go on! I also know that I have learned a very good lesson in all this! Don't ever take for granted those people in my life that I hold dear to me, Because they could be taking to god at anytime! Live for the day and enjoy being with people and help others and be caring and generous as my Netty was for me!